✨✨ ✨TAKE THAT, SELF-DOUBT! ✨✨ ✨
Last night, I hurled the first blog article I’d published in years into my computer’s garbage bin in a fit of self-pity. My book only had a few reviews and a depressing number of sales, plus not one person had commented on my article all day long.
Not.
One.
Person.
Not only that, but I had run an Instagram post that three people saw. When it only had a couple of comments, I banished it to die in the trash can beside that #%^&! blog article.
Since self-doubt is exhausting, I cut my pathetic pity party short by heading to bed early.
As I was pulling the covers over my head, “J. GG.” texted me a photo she had styled of my debut book on her coffee table. I couldn’t believe she had A) purchased my book and B) taken the time to showcase Happy Great Day® Self-Care Habits to Create a Beautiful Life in a wicker basket beside a flamboyant pink flower and a dainty tea set.
I paused my self-beating long enough to feel enchanted by her artwork, knowing that I would never forget this thoughtful gesture. Then I wrote her back, “Oh my gosh. It’s been a rough day. Thank you for being the reason I smiled anyway.”
I am no slouch in the prayer department: I had spent ***hundreds of hours visualizing all the hope this book can bring to women who, like me, yearn for a thrilling transformation.***
Nonetheless, last night I had reached the point of giving up on a career as an author and no longer cared whether the book sold or not.
I had difficulty falling asleep, as I stared at the ceiling in a fit of existential despair, contemplating the need for a speedy career change.
I’m still processing what happened next.
My phone woke me up early, buzzing with congratulatory texts and calls: There it was! — a screenshot announcing that I had written the #1 best selling book in Inspirational Spirituality on Amazon and scored #16 in Happiness!
Of course I know that these statistics are constantly being updated. And yes, I understand that the book is likely to take a hard fall in 22 seconds. But I’ve put the ultimate blue-print for lasting self-care success that helped me heal out into the world for others to discover. That’s a priceless reward I can keep.
Maybe this will be another article that nobody reads. It still made me happy to write it!
✨It feels good to feel good again.✨
My Aunt Merry Joys likes to say that, “We’re all connected by beautiful ribbons of light that we can’t see yet.
✨Synchronistic miracles have begun to blur my visual prayers with reality. And this sweet moment in time has brought me pure joy that I will never forget.
✨If I can believe in the dream of a better world that starts to come true, so can you. ✨
✨✨✨Sending Sparkle
